"Soulworm "
by Edward Willett
Published by Shadowpaw Press Reprise
Review by Shelley A. Leedahl
$22.99
ISBN 978-1-989398-80-7
I missed it the first time, but what’s
old is new again—Aurora Award-winning author Edward Willett’s YA fantasy novel,
Soulworm, has been auspiciously re-released. What a treat to read the
book that launched the prolific Regina writer’s impressive career in 1997,
especially as I’ve so enjoyed his subsequent books. And prolific is an
understatement: the heralded author, publisher, podcaster, actor and singer has
written more than sixty books, including science fiction and nonfiction titles.
The opening scene of Willett’s new and
revised edition immediately pulled this reader in: it’s 1984, near Weyburn, SK,
and seven paragraphs into the story, three teens are in a horrific car
accident. After the “car rolled six times in a welter of mud and water,
tortured metal, and breaking glass,” it landed upright, and, hauntingly, Van
Halen was still “blasting, the thump of the bass like a club pounding the
ground.” Exceptional writing. And that’s what one can expect from this seasoned
writer, all the way through this adrenalin-charged tale.
The story’s simultaneously old-school
otherworldly—complete with torches, a tower and drawbridge—and rooted in
Earthly details. Sixteen-year-old Liothel is an “Acolyte” in female-only Wardfast
Mykia. It’s 2967. She was orphaned as a baby and thus has never known a true,
loving family, though she’s surrounded by other Acolytes, Warders (those who’ve
Manifested their Talent(s) of “Detection” …. and/or “Exorcism”), “Sentinels”
and her beloved chief tutor, aging Jara.
Liothel’s a late-bloomer: she wonders
if she will ever Manifest a Talent, necessary for “[contributing]
directly to Mykia’s most important work, the continuing battle against the
soulworms.” The eponymous “evil” soulworms “live to eat and reproduce … they
thrive on negative emotions … infiltrate their victims, influence their actions
…. Feed, and grow; and then, when the time is right, in a paroxysm of physical
violence, they spawn … and the cycle repeats.” Creator forbid one ever finds
its way to “violent” Earth, the “parallel world,” through the hole that’s
“hidden, guarded, and watched,” because it would thrive in the here and now. Lionel’s
daily life is “unchanging,” apart from witnessing the odd exorcism, but soon
there’s a new teenaged Acolyte (and new roommate) in Mykia. Before we return to
Weyburn, we’re introduced to Kalia—and Liothel’s instantly wary of the battered
refugee.
Most of the story does take place in
the “real” world. I won’t reveal the connection, but will tell you that on
Earth, accident survivors and former best friends Maribeth and Christine are no
longer themselves. After waking from a two-month coma, Maribeth suffers
“moments of oddness,” and the television “[makes] her pulse race.” Christine’s flipped
her proverbial lid, and heads up a new gang called the “Ice Devils.” Fortunately,
new student Adam, becomes Maribeth’s ally … and more.
Willett’s rich imagination and his
almost magical ability to create stories that simultaneously straddle the world
we know—fluorescent lights, football, and all— and the unique one he
authentically creates is the reason he’s gained so many fans, and I am surely
among them.
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“Releasing Your Need To Please:
Escaping Romantic Relationships with Narcissistic Women”
Written by James Butler
Published by Wood Dragon Books
Review by Shelley A. Leedahl
$21.99 ISBN 9-781990-863301
I wanted to review Releasing Your
Need To Please: Escaping Romantic Relationships with Narcissistic Women because
of the premise. It’s unusual, in my experience, to read about female
narcissism, but Saskatoon counsellor and author James Butler writes that
there’s a “growing phenomenon of women who perpetuate narcissistic abuse.” The
men they’re in relationship with are the “pleasers,” and Butler says the only
way for a pleaser to live a happy, healthy life is to leave the narcissistic
relationship. “If … you are looking for help to escape your toxic
relationship, this book is definitely for you,” the disclaimer
states. The self-help book’s purpose is “to offer information about how to get
out of unfixable, unsustainable, dangerous relationships.” Pleasers must break
the “never-ending cycle” of “manipulation and accommodation,” once and for all,
and Butler advises them to “lawyer up before [they] plan to escape.”
It can be a “disease to please.” Narcissists
and pleasers attract one another because of a deep need for love and acceptance
that, Butler maintains, they didn’t get enough of as children. He speaks
frequently of the “trauma bond”—“The connection created by the repetitive cycle
of neediness and pleasing between a narcissist and a pleaser.” Pleasers
continually repress their own thoughts, wants and needs to accommodate their
partners’. Again, he points to child-parent relationships: “Since his emotional
needs were rarely met, [the pleaser] did not learn that his feelings, wants,
and needs mattered. In order to emotionally survive he had to please …” A “desperate need for external validation”
from one’s partner demonstrates an insecure attachment style.
Butler refrains from using the word
“victim,” as he believes everyone has a choice to leave or stay. Choice equals
power. It’s integral to “[get] honest with yourself,” however difficult that
is, and to learn “the skills of disengagement and detachment.” Trusting one’s
self is key.
Doesn’t everyone know a narcissist and
a pleaser? Narcissists feel “empty, lonely, powerless and needful,” Butler
writes. Like pleasers, they have serious self-esteem issues. In relationship,
they can be “irresponsible, controlling, volatile, manipulative, and unstable.”
Pleasers are “adept at rationalizing the abusive relationship …. in order to
repress deep trauma and fears of confronting the perceived pain of separation.”
They “normalize” their mate’s control over them, blame themselves, and often
believe that if they remain agreeable, she will change.
I feel it’s fair to say that many
people believe that even a toxic relationship—rife with “confusion, anxiety,
self-doubt, defeat, worthlessness, mental anguish, panic attacks, and loss of
identity”—is better than being alone, so they continue to repress themselves
rather than doing the hard work (including the “legitimate suffering of grief”)
necessary to “escape the hell that has become their comfort zone.” Fear of
abandonment is huge, and it ruins lives.
I appreciated the occasional anecdotes
in this thought-provoking text, and learned that “turning the mirror around” is
an important step in regaining one’s power. Why? Because “Creating happiness
and love is an inside job.” Sage advice from an inspiring, experienced
professional.
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“Get Your Footprints Out of My Garden”
Written by K.J. Moss
Published by Wood Dragon Books
Review by Shelley A. Leedahl
$19.99 ISBN 9-781990-863509
Poetry can sometimes be obscure and
leave readers feeling that they just don’t “get” the work, and thus, they’re
unable to connect with it. No one could accuse Moose Jaw resident Karran Moss,
a longtime Registered Massage Therapist and new poet, of writing ambiguous
work: the poems in her fifty-piece collection, Get Your Footprints Out Of My
Garden, are clear-eyed, plain-spoken and easily understandable.
Moss explains in her introduction that
at age twelve, during a Grade Seven school trip, she was “trapped in an
elevator with a predator.” Further trauma occurred when a “well-meaning group
of people” tried “to ‘pray’ the trauma out of [her],” which served only to exacerbate
her PTSD: “religion became a trauma trigger,” she writes, and this collection
is her “journey of growth and healing.” During therapy, “these poems started
flying out of [her] soul.” As she continued working on her diagnosed c-PTSD
(Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) with a psychologist, the healing
began. The tone and “frenzy” of the poems changed, and her “life started to
make sense.”
The vulnerable and hopeful meditations
are organized into three sections, “Trauma,” “Healing,” and “Living,” and of
these, I found the poems in the “Trauma” section the strongest. Here the poet
speaks to her inner child, and the first poem begins with the effective line:
“And just like that my world crumbles.” She outlines the transformation in her
personality after the elevator incident, and over the course of the poem she
self-talks her way toward peace and health. “You are a powerful beautiful
soul,” she writes, and “You can manage this life. Find the light.” In the next
poem her anger is evident. Of her abuser, she writes “You suck the life out of
kids.” She says: “The rats and the serpents/can feast on you,” and she calls
him “Festering puss.”
Too many girls have to live with the devastating
effects of childhood sexual abuse, and among the saddest outcomes is that
they’re robbed of childhood joy. In “Dear 12-Year-Old Self,” Moss begins: “Dear
little brown-eyed girl./I lost you” and assures her inner child that she is “A
caged animal about to have a new life.” A happy life. Sensory pleasures—ie:
“subtle shifts in the wind—represent newfound joy, and a mind’s “Full of little
listens.”
Another consequence of trauma is
difficulty with interpersonal relationships, and Moss examines this in poems
that reveal that though she “push[es] people away,” she doesn’t “want anyone to
go.” A kind of exorcism of negative thoughts, habits and relationships is
unveiled. A twenty-year marriage is examined, a stalker addressed. A healthier
woman emerges.
The puzzle of putting herself back
together is a challenge, but the poet is “so close to putting it all together.”
Through stillness, deep breathing, therapy and writing, Moss survives and is on
her way to thriving. Once “a lifeless broken glass” that was “not capable of
holding any form,” the poet learns that her “authentic self is a masterpiece,”
and as readers, we can celebrate with her.
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