"Soulworm "
by Edward Willett
Published by Shadowpaw Press Reprise
Review by Shelley A. Leedahl
$22.99
ISBN 978-1-989398-80-7
I missed it the first time, but what’s old is new again—Aurora Award-winning author Edward Willett’s YA fantasy novel, Soulworm, has been auspiciously re-released. What a treat to read the book that launched the prolific Regina writer’s impressive career in 1997, especially as I’ve so enjoyed his subsequent books. And prolific is an understatement: the heralded author, publisher, podcaster, actor and singer has written more than sixty books, including science fiction and nonfiction titles.
The opening scene of Willett’s new and revised edition immediately pulled this reader in: it’s 1984, near Weyburn, SK, and seven paragraphs into the story, three teens are in a horrific car accident. After the “car rolled six times in a welter of mud and water, tortured metal, and breaking glass,” it landed upright, and, hauntingly, Van Halen was still “blasting, the thump of the bass like a club pounding the ground.” Exceptional writing. And that’s what one can expect from this seasoned writer, all the way through this adrenalin-charged tale.
The story’s simultaneously old-school otherworldly—complete with torches, a tower and drawbridge—and rooted in Earthly details. Sixteen-year-old Liothel is an “Acolyte” in female-only Wardfast Mykia. It’s 2967. She was orphaned as a baby and thus has never known a true, loving family, though she’s surrounded by other Acolytes, Warders (those who’ve Manifested their Talent(s) of “Detection” …. and/or “Exorcism”), “Sentinels” and her beloved chief tutor, aging Jara.
Liothel’s a late-bloomer: she wonders if she will ever Manifest a Talent, necessary for “[contributing] directly to Mykia’s most important work, the continuing battle against the soulworms.” The eponymous “evil” soulworms “live to eat and reproduce … they thrive on negative emotions … infiltrate their victims, influence their actions …. Feed, and grow; and then, when the time is right, in a paroxysm of physical violence, they spawn … and the cycle repeats.” Creator forbid one ever finds its way to “violent” Earth, the “parallel world,” through the hole that’s “hidden, guarded, and watched,” because it would thrive in the here and now. Lionel’s daily life is “unchanging,” apart from witnessing the odd exorcism, but soon there’s a new teenaged Acolyte (and new roommate) in Mykia. Before we return to Weyburn, we’re introduced to Kalia—and Liothel’s instantly wary of the battered refugee.
Most of the story does take place in the “real” world. I won’t reveal the connection, but will tell you that on Earth, accident survivors and former best friends Maribeth and Christine are no longer themselves. After waking from a two-month coma, Maribeth suffers “moments of oddness,” and the television “[makes] her pulse race.” Christine’s flipped her proverbial lid, and heads up a new gang called the “Ice Devils.” Fortunately, new student Adam, becomes Maribeth’s ally … and more.
Willett’s rich imagination and his almost magical ability to create stories that simultaneously straddle the world we know—fluorescent lights, football, and all— and the unique one he authentically creates is the reason he’s gained so many fans, and I am surely among them.
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“Releasing Your Need To Please: Escaping Romantic Relationships with Narcissistic Women”
Written by James Butler
Published by Wood Dragon Books
Review by Shelley A. Leedahl
$21.99 ISBN 9-781990-863301
I wanted to review Releasing Your Need To Please: Escaping Romantic Relationships with Narcissistic Women because of the premise. It’s unusual, in my experience, to read about female narcissism, but Saskatoon counsellor and author James Butler writes that there’s a “growing phenomenon of women who perpetuate narcissistic abuse.” The men they’re in relationship with are the “pleasers,” and Butler says the only way for a pleaser to live a happy, healthy life is to leave the narcissistic relationship. “If … you are looking for help to escape your toxic relationship, this book is definitely for you,” the disclaimer states. The self-help book’s purpose is “to offer information about how to get out of unfixable, unsustainable, dangerous relationships.” Pleasers must break the “never-ending cycle” of “manipulation and accommodation,” once and for all, and Butler advises them to “lawyer up before [they] plan to escape.”
It can be a “disease to please.” Narcissists and pleasers attract one another because of a deep need for love and acceptance that, Butler maintains, they didn’t get enough of as children. He speaks frequently of the “trauma bond”—“The connection created by the repetitive cycle of neediness and pleasing between a narcissist and a pleaser.” Pleasers continually repress their own thoughts, wants and needs to accommodate their partners’. Again, he points to child-parent relationships: “Since his emotional needs were rarely met, [the pleaser] did not learn that his feelings, wants, and needs mattered. In order to emotionally survive he had to please …” A “desperate need for external validation” from one’s partner demonstrates an insecure attachment style.
Butler refrains from using the word “victim,” as he believes everyone has a choice to leave or stay. Choice equals power. It’s integral to “[get] honest with yourself,” however difficult that is, and to learn “the skills of disengagement and detachment.” Trusting one’s self is key.
Doesn’t everyone know a narcissist and a pleaser? Narcissists feel “empty, lonely, powerless and needful,” Butler writes. Like pleasers, they have serious self-esteem issues. In relationship, they can be “irresponsible, controlling, volatile, manipulative, and unstable.” Pleasers are “adept at rationalizing the abusive relationship …. in order to repress deep trauma and fears of confronting the perceived pain of separation.” They “normalize” their mate’s control over them, blame themselves, and often believe that if they remain agreeable, she will change.
I feel it’s fair to say that many people believe that even a toxic relationship—rife with “confusion, anxiety, self-doubt, defeat, worthlessness, mental anguish, panic attacks, and loss of identity”—is better than being alone, so they continue to repress themselves rather than doing the hard work (including the “legitimate suffering of grief”) necessary to “escape the hell that has become their comfort zone.” Fear of abandonment is huge, and it ruins lives.
I appreciated the occasional anecdotes in this thought-provoking text, and learned that “turning the mirror around” is an important step in regaining one’s power. Why? Because “Creating happiness and love is an inside job.” Sage advice from an inspiring, experienced professional.
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“Get Your Footprints Out of My Garden”
Written by K.J. Moss
Published by Wood Dragon Books
Review by Shelley A. Leedahl
$19.99 ISBN 9-781990-863509
Poetry can sometimes be obscure and leave readers feeling that they just don’t “get” the work, and thus, they’re unable to connect with it. No one could accuse Moose Jaw resident Karran Moss, a longtime Registered Massage Therapist and new poet, of writing ambiguous work: the poems in her fifty-piece collection, Get Your Footprints Out Of My Garden, are clear-eyed, plain-spoken and easily understandable.
Moss explains in her introduction that at age twelve, during a Grade Seven school trip, she was “trapped in an elevator with a predator.” Further trauma occurred when a “well-meaning group of people” tried “to ‘pray’ the trauma out of [her],” which served only to exacerbate her PTSD: “religion became a trauma trigger,” she writes, and this collection is her “journey of growth and healing.” During therapy, “these poems started flying out of [her] soul.” As she continued working on her diagnosed c-PTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) with a psychologist, the healing began. The tone and “frenzy” of the poems changed, and her “life started to make sense.”
The vulnerable and hopeful meditations are organized into three sections, “Trauma,” “Healing,” and “Living,” and of these, I found the poems in the “Trauma” section the strongest. Here the poet speaks to her inner child, and the first poem begins with the effective line: “And just like that my world crumbles.” She outlines the transformation in her personality after the elevator incident, and over the course of the poem she self-talks her way toward peace and health. “You are a powerful beautiful soul,” she writes, and “You can manage this life. Find the light.” In the next poem her anger is evident. Of her abuser, she writes “You suck the life out of kids.” She says: “The rats and the serpents/can feast on you,” and she calls him “Festering puss.”
Too many girls have to live with the devastating effects of childhood sexual abuse, and among the saddest outcomes is that they’re robbed of childhood joy. In “Dear 12-Year-Old Self,” Moss begins: “Dear little brown-eyed girl./I lost you” and assures her inner child that she is “A caged animal about to have a new life.” A happy life. Sensory pleasures—ie: “subtle shifts in the wind—represent newfound joy, and a mind’s “Full of little listens.”
Another consequence of trauma is difficulty with interpersonal relationships, and Moss examines this in poems that reveal that though she “push[es] people away,” she doesn’t “want anyone to go.” A kind of exorcism of negative thoughts, habits and relationships is unveiled. A twenty-year marriage is examined, a stalker addressed. A healthier woman emerges.
The puzzle of putting herself back together is a challenge, but the poet is “so close to putting it all together.” Through stillness, deep breathing, therapy and writing, Moss survives and is on her way to thriving. Once “a lifeless broken glass” that was “not capable of holding any form,” the poet learns that her “authentic self is a masterpiece,” and as readers, we can celebrate with her.
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